You know, I keep trying to move on, but my ex called me tonight since we haven't spoken since she told me she got engaged. It's hard to fucking be happy when this person that I devoted my life too is suddenly head over heals for some guy she hasn't even known two months.
I don't have love-love for her anymore. It's the whole severing the emotional cord thing. I think it was getting easier since I hadn't talked to her in a while. She says she still cares about me, but that her and Danny just want the same things, they want to spend the rest of their lives together, have a family, and that he will be there no matter what...same shit we said to one another. Did I mean it? Fucking hell.
Damn if I just don't want to move on without having these fucking painful moments that everyone says are natural. Don't fucking tell me it takes years to get over a long term relationship. I want to be over it now.

I don't have love-love for her anymore. It's the whole severing the emotional cord thing. I think it was getting easier since I hadn't talked to her in a while. She says she still cares about me, but that her and Danny just want the same things, they want to spend the rest of their lives together, have a family, and that he will be there no matter what...same shit we said to one another. Did I mean it? Fucking hell.
Damn if I just don't want to move on without having these fucking painful moments that everyone says are natural. Don't fucking tell me it takes years to get over a long term relationship. I want to be over it now.

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You know Ive been waiting since I was 17 to join Suicide Girls. I wanted to apply but I was only 17 so I waited until I was 18 but when I was 18 I was waaaaay to bizzzy with learning to pierce and moving into the college lifestyle that I just didnt have time. But now that I am 19 I figured it was about time. lol.
Hmm well my set will probably not be up for months some girls have been waiting a year. Geeez a year is a long time.
I do wanna learn how to tattoo but I really dont have the patience to tattoo. I barely can deal with people enough to pierce them more less than tattoo them for an hour or two.
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Other tattoo shops around here change a couple thousand we are the only shop that doesn't charge.
I am sooo happy for you with your jewl. store! Thats awesome. I bet your glad it's about to start going.
Oh yeah and I shave my hair all the way above my ear. I have been using this one shampoo that is sopposed to thicken my hair but that shit just don't seem like it's working. Im not worried about it cuz im'll just stop dying it for awhile.
My natural hair color is brown. I'll try to get a picture of me on here with my natural colored hair, but the last time I had natural hair was in 6th grade. So that pic will have to do. lol.
My best best friend in the whole world took my set pictures. His name is John. I met him in Highschool in 10th grade and ever since we have been the bestest friend but we tried to date once and it was just WIERD so we are friends now.
I'm about to go out to eat.
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