Total fucking exhaustion. I feel like a bit of elastic that has been pulled past it's limit, the inner cords ripped and wirey. Lately every day seems like this, but a little worse.
This isn't some case of depression but a case of my own neurosis, my own world of reducing my intake of sleep beyond it's limit. I've gotten to the point of seeing everything more like a Seurat painting, only even far away the dots stay large. This isn't my vision talking. Will there be some sort of mental split? Will I break down on a molecular level, turning into some sort of gelatinous creature?
If I close my eyes for longer than 5 seconds, I will pass out. My first instinctual response, reprogrammed by the stimuli of modern culture is to reach for a cup of coffee as opposed to assuming a fetal position and narcoleptically knocking off the planet for a few hours.
...need lidlocks for me gluzzballs.
This isn't some case of depression but a case of my own neurosis, my own world of reducing my intake of sleep beyond it's limit. I've gotten to the point of seeing everything more like a Seurat painting, only even far away the dots stay large. This isn't my vision talking. Will there be some sort of mental split? Will I break down on a molecular level, turning into some sort of gelatinous creature?
If I close my eyes for longer than 5 seconds, I will pass out. My first instinctual response, reprogrammed by the stimuli of modern culture is to reach for a cup of coffee as opposed to assuming a fetal position and narcoleptically knocking off the planet for a few hours.
...need lidlocks for me gluzzballs.
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by the way your really hot
[Edited on Oct 12, 2005 10:45AM]