zechariah

Today was a good day I guess. Nothing too special happened. "She" called me on her break to ask if I was anywhere near her work so she would have someone to go on break with ( I know it didn't probably mean anything, but it means she had to at least have thought of me for a second which still feels nice). And I text messaged her after she got off work and she responded back with " I was just about to text message you." meaning she had to be thinking of me again. Again it probably meant nothing but just the idea of me being in her head, makes me feel better. Do I sound like an idiot? I know I'm probably just hurting myself by being in love with someone who I don't think feels the same but I can't change it. And even after everytime i've felt dumb or wanted to cry about it, or thought she hated me, i don't think i would give it up for anything

TO Jennifer,
I know the odds of you ever seeing this are slim and none but should you stop by for some reason I want you to know that, every time I've told you you were beautiful or said that I don't know anyone who's good enough for you, I meant it. I don't ever know what to say to you, i feel dumb around you and I don't feel dumb around many people. I am not smooth or good at reading women especially you and if you think I'm an idiot thats fine, but as much as i love being your friend, i still think we could be so much more. Whatever you think, just know I care and in my own little stupid way I [love] you and i will deal with whatever you want because I love just being around you. I need to shut the fuck up!

Just know that you make me stutter! I don't know a better way to say it. You make me lose my words.