Things I love (part 2) :
When you buy new chuck taylors and they are so bright they hurt your eyes to look at.
When I'm giving a girl a massage and I get to the lower back and "love handles" (actually I just love giving girls massages in general, I'll do it for hours)
Standing in the ocean and having the tide wash the sand out from around my feet.
Making a joke that makes everyone forget what we were talking about.
When you're talking with a girl and she coyly bites her lower lip.
Sappy movies that get me made fun of (chick flicks).
Having a lyric or new poem just "pop" into your head.
People who care more for others than they do for themselves.
NOW for things I don't love:
Seeing animals suffer (even special effects in movies)
The fact my father is dead 11 years and I still refuse to let myself deal with it.
The fact that i feel embarrassed when I cry.
Static during a good song on the radio.
Being so lazy and stubborn.
Not loving myself.
Not being mature enough to deal with rejection.
Having a gourmet palet with a macaroni budget, when it comes to who I am attracted to.
People who think I'll think its funny when they tell me Im ugly (that happens to me alot).
Looking down at my hands and realizing they've never made a difference in anyones life.
This morning I woke to discover what I had always secretly known inside. That you were never who I thought you were. Just a face to put to the dream, the one I've had so many times before. A name to call my longing. I look at you and know not to hope, I remember. My heart is wonderfilled, how can an emotion be so absolutely true and absolutley wrong all at the same time? How can I suffer myself to such extremes, make every moment so lacking, so tormented. How can I constantly kill myself from the inside out.How am I so simple.
Boy, wasn't reading that a waste of time?
I'll shut up now
When you buy new chuck taylors and they are so bright they hurt your eyes to look at.
When I'm giving a girl a massage and I get to the lower back and "love handles" (actually I just love giving girls massages in general, I'll do it for hours)
Standing in the ocean and having the tide wash the sand out from around my feet.
Making a joke that makes everyone forget what we were talking about.
When you're talking with a girl and she coyly bites her lower lip.
Sappy movies that get me made fun of (chick flicks).
Having a lyric or new poem just "pop" into your head.
People who care more for others than they do for themselves.
NOW for things I don't love:
Seeing animals suffer (even special effects in movies)
The fact my father is dead 11 years and I still refuse to let myself deal with it.
The fact that i feel embarrassed when I cry.
Static during a good song on the radio.
Being so lazy and stubborn.
Not loving myself.
Not being mature enough to deal with rejection.
Having a gourmet palet with a macaroni budget, when it comes to who I am attracted to.
People who think I'll think its funny when they tell me Im ugly (that happens to me alot).
Looking down at my hands and realizing they've never made a difference in anyones life.
This morning I woke to discover what I had always secretly known inside. That you were never who I thought you were. Just a face to put to the dream, the one I've had so many times before. A name to call my longing. I look at you and know not to hope, I remember. My heart is wonderfilled, how can an emotion be so absolutely true and absolutley wrong all at the same time? How can I suffer myself to such extremes, make every moment so lacking, so tormented. How can I constantly kill myself from the inside out.How am I so simple.
Boy, wasn't reading that a waste of time?
I'll shut up now
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And by the way, you are hot as hell...
Thank you for that comment in my journal. I think that you are way too hard on yourself. Just reading your journal tells me so much about you. And as for you being called ugly and people thinking it's funny. I don't think you are ugly at all. I think you're a beautiful person, and from the sound of it, unlike most people that beauty is more than just skin deep. Plus you're a musician... lol take a look at "what gets me hot"
Now you can look at your hands and know you've made a difference and you will continue making differences for the rest of your years. You managed to make a girl you barely know smile on a morning she was dreading because she doesnt' want to go to work. It may be a small thing but it makes my morning a little easier to start it with a smile so thank you.
Oh and for the record you're totally hot, tattoos are fuckin sexy. plus you're a musician which is the sexiest thing on earth... guitarist - i mean hello! oh and your eyes are gorgeous and that name... that's a sexy name heh. ok i'm done
xoxo - Karol