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What do you do when all feels lost?.... when it seems like you've no one to turn to but yourself.... i feel like I am drowning... my heart feels so heavy.... like it can't possibly take anything else... you think you have friends to turn too but then they turn their back.... and then will they wonder why ive become hard? why ive become a "bitch" and i let no one in....

I could always hide the pain, hide the sorrow... it isn't so easy now to put on the face people expect to see...

I am becoming me....
evolving into something new...
is it dark?
is it good?
too soon to tell..
I am just breaking out of the cacoon.....

can i accept it?
can they?
does it matter?

no one will ever understand why i put myself through the pain.... but have they felt the way i feel now....

so in love the thought of not having him kills me....

do not tell me i am wrong, for i will not listen....

All i need is a shoulder that i can cry on...
I know what I am doing....
even though you may not agree...

As i spread my wings, will i feel the wind under them?
will i soar, or will I fall?