zebranova

so i sit here pondering....... wondering why life has to be such a bitch..... It was absolutely beautiful outside today but the prettier it gets outside the more depressed I get..... On a day like today Lee and I would have been hiking somewhere, or doin it in the woods ..... Its the good memories that makes my situation hard.... and it really sucks when you don't have any bad memories to cheer u up..... He did call but he is so depressed that normal conversation is almost impossible..... I just wanna kiss him and tell him everything is ok..........

There is one thing that I have figured out..

Torture by definition is a piece of glass an inch think, a tiny stool to sit on and a phone that doesn't work for shit....You can look, and sometimes hear, but you definately can't touch... and that is all you want.... just one hug, just for one second to feel his hand on your face, or to feel his lips against yours...