zeal

It was the end of an era yesterday. I was kind of sad but mainly it just got me mad. I just hate the bitchiness of girls and some guys!!! I tried to be nice but even 2months after the supposed 'event', they wont even acknowledge my existance. I feel like I'm in highschool, and having a bad time in highschool ( i had a great high school experience, the joy of being in a small internationa school I suppose). But I'm officially done with anyone in that complex, my living quarters for the past two years. EVERYONE. I was warned it was going to be like melrose place when I moved in but I had no idea it would be that bad! And the people weren't even good looking......hello claws!!! So, I'm done. I've had enough with unnecessary drama.....im cleaning out my 'friend' list as it were, and it's sad that there are very few remaining.
I guess I'm getting fed up of the way I'm treated, in relationships and friendships. I feel that more oftne than not people befriend me because I am that weird girl, the one who does what she wants but not in a bad ass kind of way, in a sweet, odd kinda way. They like me around becuase of my strangeness and fun but as soon as I'm outta sight, I'm outta mind. They only like me on asuperficial level. The douche bag men hit on me becuase they want to sleep with that one freaky 'alternative' chick, (it reminds me of the movie juno) and that as well as the girls' attitude towards me makes me very sad. This is a major reason for leaving Texas, people, guys and girls, don't get me here. I know I will be appreciated in the great punk rock city of Boston....and I can't wait!!! Head down, shit done until I move...and it can't come soon enough!!!!!