zarphin

I now officially have nowhere to speak my mind freely. Bleh. Which is probably good, because my mind is not clear on anything right now, and therefor, should not be polluting the thoughts of other, more sane people. September, September, always September. Next year I'm taking it off, the whole month, off from life, I'll speak only to the five guys closest to me, and aside from them I'll have no contact with the outside world. maybe that would keep my September from being a month of random, insane changes. ha, yea right.
Well tonight I finally got my daughters rooms new paint started, just repainted the ceiling white tonight, but thats step one in the painting. So we are on our way! Walls will be light purple i.e. periwinkle, and will have tinkerbell blowing dark purple sparkly fairy dust across the walls. Should be pretty cool. I'm looking forward to her having a room that meant for her where we live. Its going to mean we're really here, I think it will help me accept that I'm stuck living here, and change it from stuck, to simply living here.
Other news, we're gearing up for Miss Kirin's birthday party, should be a good time. Tomorrow she's being kind enough to act as my date to a friends wedding, always nice to take a beautiful girl as a date. The late next week her boyfriend TaoandCoffee is coming to town. I'm looking forward to the party, as I may actually get to talk to him for more than 15 weird minutes standing in a kitchen. ;-) They have a whole bunch of stuff planned for while he's here. I'm happy for her, they don't get to spend nearly enough time together.
On my girl hunt, I'm just kind of sitting and waiting. I could possibly have met a girl tonight out at a bar, but really needed to get that ceiling painted. Maybe in the next couple weeks. I'm slowly but surely becoming less anxious about it. I know it will happen when its supposed to, and hopefully in the meantime I won't make too many incredibly stupid mistakes. I have made a couple of those in the past month, and a part of me wants to be mad at me, part of me want to be angry at what lead to it, and a part of me realizes it was what i was expecting the whole time. I'd be more specific, but well, too many people I actually know are on here now.
In brief, I spent a couple more days in Chicago, for job training. and I must say I really love that area. hate the traffic, and idiot drivers, but they're everywhere. A big big part of me wishes I was able to move there again, and as a single guy, I'm pretty sure I could really have the time of my life, and find someone who is my kind of girl. Alas my daughter is far more important than anything I could find there, and so here I stay, for now. Never say never, I've been proven wrong, and had the most amazingly unexpected things happen in my life. Onward we go.

--Z