zarphin

Ever had one of those days that starts out normal, and then it just slowly becomes more and more unusual. I've gotten into some sort of horrid mood at the moment, very melancholy, and lonely. Maybe its the weather? damn snow came back, and it was fun driving around in it, but now that I'm home, I'm trying to continue cleaning and organizing. Coming across old papers, old pictures, moments of joy in my past. Maybe thats the cause. Just really down right now. Hate feeling down, its so very not me. I used to be the kid people would intentionally upset just to see how long until I started smiling again. It was a game. I always smiled, and even then life was kinda crappy, but I could always see the joy, and the hope. Right now, I just feel stuck. Stuck here, alone, just drifting through life at this point. I had so much hope just a few short month ago, and now I have only my daughter, and her only every other week. Its just rough. meh. sorry to bitch, this too shall pass.

--Z