zanafar

To clarify my last entry a bit.....there is this girl who I care about deeply. Found out that the very slim chance I had with her is really no chance at all. She is in love.....and not with me.
I wish I had taken the news better....she was going through a hard time because she missed him and I didnt help at all (some great friend I am huh? )
Im not mad or upset at her at all.....the heart wants what the heart wants after all. but the news was depressing to me....and to be honest ...I did shed a few tears that night.
I still consider her to be just about my best frend in the world though.....and I wish her all the happiness in the world. I just wish I could have been the one to make her happy.

Oh well.......long ago I realized that I would be alone through out my life......and I have come to accept that. Its just some times I wish and hope for unrealistic things