zahra

So I changed my Alias to my model name, I'm a wicked scene kid, I swear.

I've been deathly ill for the past days, feverish and disgusting. I am in dire need of a bath,

Being sick always seems to remind me of what an amazing partner I have. He'll call into work just to bathe me and make sure I'm okay. That is love. Waking up next to someone who's just drenched your freshly washed sheets in sweat and giving them a kiss and asking if they're alright, that's love. I'm such a fucking lush.

But I'm sure you all saw Hellah's set. She and I used to be best friends. I think. She seems to refer to me as her ex-girlfriend, although there really is no truth in that statement. Only awkwardly placed feelings, etc.

I've always been somewhat bitter about her new life and distance toward me, regardless of my attempts to rekindle our friendship through phone calls and whatnot. Not anymore though, I'm very happy for her and for where she is and I hope she can have success in her chosen proffession as well as continuing her education.

Do you ever just miss that past so desperately that it makes you realize how crazy you are. Then all of a sudden it's gone and you don't care anymore.

I love you Hellah, you're beautiful. SG has been our goal for a while I'm proud of you for making it come true.

We raised a looooooooooooooooooot of hell . Ahha.