zahra

Things have been surreal, life with the boy is better. I think I'm going to NY to meet up with Surfinbird (or Brian) and do a shoot. His images are fantastic. He's worked with such beauties like Apnea, Fetish, and Kerry Scary. I've been working with Raj on a more regular basis, which is good. He's a good photographer and I'm learning a lot about modeling from him. He knows exactly what he wants from posing to outfits. I think once I become more experianced he won't have to direct me as much. I'm still learning what looks flattering for me. I just want you all to see me for what I am, imperfectly beautiful. Cellulite and all.

Today I'm tripping for the first time on mushies. I've never done anything but smoke marijuana for my entire life. For some reason the idea of tripping has stuck with me since I was little. I know if I don't experiance it, I'll regret it, but what happens if I like it too much.

I don't wanna be another
drug abuser
teen statistic.