zahra

This week has been - this year has been

insane.

Tonight I said goodbye. The kind of goodbyes that never again see light of hello.

I just need happiness, and nothing is getting better. What do I have to lose? I've already lost my self respect.

Letting go is the hardest part of falling in love.. and after a year and a half, where do we find ourselves? I feel like Jesus, walking toward his crucifixion, carrying the entire burden of my relationship with me, with no help to carry it along.

Well I don't want to carry it anymore.

I saw the guy who took my virginity for the first time since middle school. It was.. odd. I wanted to ask him so many questions - see where he's at today.

[MEMBER=Hellah's] set tomorrow with Murkling! Much fun indeed.

Although, I don't know how anything can be fun anymore.

Once he fucks someone else, which he will very soon, I'll be so forgotten about.

I wish I got chased every once in a while.