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Thursday Oct 06, 2005

Oct 6, 2005
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My life is falling apart.

In the past week I have had multiple fevers a day, I've been sicker than I can ever remember. My schoolwork slowly piled up until I nearly exploded and it is still seeping into this week.

In the past week my boyfriend has told me he doesn't love me anymore, taking it back after the fight. The abusive level our arguments reach has jumped - I never thought this could happen, I never thought he would say that.

In the past week I have appeared unprofessional to one too many photographers. This was the week where I had 4 shoots scheduled and a meeting with a photog. I attended 0. This breaks my heart.

I need to focus on me, I have become very depressed, so self loathing that I can't even force myself to shower, to make friends, to eat.

I must take time for me and for school.
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icaro74:
Chin up! You are smart, young, sexy and darn pretty. Change is always hard, so put yourself together and guide this change in your favor. If your boyfriend cannot apreciate you is his loss. Take a deep breath and be patient. All the good wishes of all the people who care for you shall do something in your favor.
I trully hope all this is for good. smile kiss EL SUICIDO LOCO
Oct 7, 2005
ines:
Unprofessional? Well, who is the idiot who said that?? He must win your trust, not getting you down!!! I hope you told him how bastard he was! Whathever, don't stop because of him, you know i'm maybe SG but i feel so uncomfortable, lacking of trust in myself with photographers, it's not called to be unprofessional! I saw the pics on your folder, and i found you looked so lovely! You should persevere! And to be surrounded by people who trust, not by incapables.

thank you for your help on my last post by the way kiss kiss kiss
Oct 9, 2005

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