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Rochester, NY

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Sunday Dec 04, 2005

Dec 3, 2005
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Cool. 7 months. And now nothing.

How odd a sensation that I should have to reassign everything in my life a new value that doesn't have to do with him anymore.

I still see him all over this apartment. I can feel him breathing all around me. But last night we were both so cold and detached because it hurt too much to be human. And I was so honest, surprisingly, about how now that the beast is acknowledged, there's no going back.

That's funny. 7 months seems to be the expiration date for me these days. And things usually go sour between Thanksgiving and Christmas. Well, maybe next May I'll find something lovely and destructive that can damn near ruin me around next Christmas.

I spose I'm not happy.

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girl303:
hang in there. frown sorry u are sad.
kiss
*BIG HUG*
Dec 4, 2005
skeksi:
I don't want to be defined by my pain anymore.
Dec 4, 2005

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