zafrina

Hey guys. So I am not doing much better than my last blog but I think I am stable at the moment. My ex and I are offically done. I broke things off. He had to many abussive traits, not that he was abussive but he just had similar traits to people who are. He is a good guy but he has alot of growing up to do and alot of things to learn. He needs to take his pride down like a million notches and realize that yes he did fuck up in our relationship and yes I am sure I did to.

For instance, I called him a couple days ago and was trying to talk to him while he was playing W.o.W (which I hate now) and his phone died. So.. I figured he'd call or text later. Nothing. That was the night that I decided I wanted to start cutting again. I was litterally having a break down and I could have used him talking to me. He got pissed and was like 'what so I am just suppose to drop what I am doing to call you back'. Granted he didn't know I was having an emotional breakdown because I hadn't gotten the chance to tell him before his phone died, but guys come on you call your girl back right? Or text her later? Its relationship etiquet.

Oh. And. I saw my actual crazy ex who I am scared of at my home town grocery store. It was awful. I was like really really come on now this is my store! Go somewhere eles! It just wasn't my week.

But I am hoping it starts getting better. Thus far I feel midly stable today, other than being way tired, and I am almost done with Spring quarter. Whew.

I wanted to thank you guys for being so amazing, btw, seriously I don't know what I would do without some of you. You guys really do help me when I am feeling so down and low. I mean my other friends help but its nice to get an outsiders perspective on stuff. So thank you all for being so wonderful!