I've been going through a lot lately.
Being single can be extremely lonely, and working all the time between two jobs has me nothing short of exhausted. I'm still at Serra (dispensary) and have been for the last year, as well as dancing 2-3 nights per week at Rose City Strip / DV8. I love my jobs, but I am itching for some exciting change in my life.
I recently moved into a super cute house in inner SE Portland, and I'm completely in love.
I fell off the map for awhile. It's almost been one year since I escaped the toxic, abusive relationship I was stuck in. He wouldn't let me dance, shoot for SG (or in general) or do anything that had to do with nudity. Being controlled by him took a huge toll on my mental and physical health. Never have I experienced that kind of manipulation or abuse inside of an intimate relationship.
I will never put up with that again, and I suppose that's why we go through such difficult times, so we come out stronger. I am thankful.
With that being said... I'm back.
I'm learning to love myself again, slowly but surely, and it feels great. So I figure, what better way to comeback than with some new photos!? <3
Today I shot with a friend of mine, Austin, but I do not have those images yet. Will post soon.. ;)
I do, however, have some photos from a shoot I did w/ Brian Jones the other day!
Here you go... :)
This shoot was fun, and it felt good to get back out there. For a long time I've been letting depression control my life like a twisted monster. I refuse to let that happen anymore. I've changed my diet, started hitting the gym, I've been reading and writing constantly, and I'm trying to continue making positive life changes. I hope you all are well.
Much love <3
~Zaelii
