z0mbi

Hey ya'll. Long time.

Well, I'm pretty fucking bored right about now. 1:15am Monday Morning and I spent the entire day lounging around watching various automotive shows on TV. I pretty much felt like a slug. Then, for some reason, at like 11pm I felt like doing something, so I took a shower, dressed up nice, and went out to cruise. Obviously, I didnt find anything to do at midnight.

So, bored and wired, I went to the gas station and bought some smokes and some water.

Then I figured I'd update this shit. I hardly ever come here anymore, but I still love the site so much I'm willing to pay for it despite the fact I don't use it.

Anyway, personal life pretty much all but blows right now. You know, though, I've been hurt so much in the past...it's amazing. The things that happen to me now that in the past would have devestated me...really don't bother me too much. It's like I'm in this perpetual state of 'aloofness' where no matter what happens...I kind of don't really care too much.

Sure, things still hurt...but it's like I expect to get hurt, so things only really freak me out when they're going well.

...not to say I'm not a generally happy guy. I am. I've just kind of given up hope on the romantic side of things. The girl I want, I can't seem to get...and I pretty much feel that thats that. I can't get her? I give up. I'll die single and I don't really have a problem with that. Oh well. I'm gonna sleep now.