youthdecayed

Another excuse. Trying to find the reasons to explain myself, so I dont look like the loser I really am. I just dont want you to get me wrong. I talk about things Ill never achieve, and I talk about things that are make-believe. Ive never been more of who I really am though. Just a lonely kid. College struggles. Friendless. Jobless. How can I even begin to make an impression in your eyes. I guess all I can do is offer reality. Reality that life is what we make it, not whether we fake it. I can be everything you want, and I can be the perfect dream. But to pretend Im a handsome, independent, hardworking man would just be a lie. In truth I just exist, my only goals; to be not no one, and to please the ones I love. A smile from pretty lips is all I need. Confused and worried. Everything I told you not to be, is how I am acting as I sit here at the screen. Have I shot myself in the foot again? Did I scare away my chance? Fuck man, I know nothing when it comes to real romance. I am something different. But different isnt always what you need. By your side, near or far, is always where Ill be. My only promise.

This may be my last complaint.......