yossarian28

I'm sitting here on my day off listening to Creep by Radiohead and I'm so terrified by actually fulfiling my dreams that I sit here and do nothing. I would have no trouble goin out and doing what I feel I want and can do but instead I just here. I watch tv, listen to music, jerk off, surf the net, daydream, and watch as the moments fly by. And my favorite activity...basking in my self-hatred. Its so frustrating knowing exactly what I need to do in order to improve my life and yet not do it. I know I will feel better once I start doing but I do not. (Sometimes I just don't like contractions.) Don't forget, we are creatures of habit and its hard doing nothing, you never know when you are done.