sweet jesus, my first day of work, in over two years, i am such a stress case, adn this is why i haven't worked, my fucking anxiety...please no panic attacks...
so, as always my before-work regimine, give myself lots of time, get up very early, prepare yourself, i need this time, like 2 hours or so before, (even if i am running behind, i will actually show up late just so i can have this time before work, where i just sit and prepare)...haha how stupid! so its liek 44 minutes and counting before i must leave, eeekkks...i'm dying inside
okay so mind you, this is such a crappy job, and doesn't ahve any of the pressures of my previous jobs, (like visual coordinator, or bookseller in charge of hadnling, recieveing, ect), & everyoen seems so laid back. also,i am much better medicated! so there! it's just a mall job, retail, but no dress code, so it seems, & i don't have to cover up my tats, or piercings, yah! maybe i should get my dimple pierced jsut for that....
i had my hair radically cut last night, don't be mad TANIS dear, you still can do crazy shit! it's really short in the back, teh front sides are long, and my bangs sweep across my forehead...its crazy i love it....tracie did a wonderful job, and seh cut luke's hair on top of it all! i never really mind getting all my hair cut off, cause fuck it grows back...
drinking coffee, which i hope doesn't amke me shit (am i teh only one on this?),a nd eating tracie's chocochip banana muffin with margarine, damn i wish there was real butter left!
it sucks that teh book i am reading now,( its a zelda fitzgerald bio, sometimes madness is wisdom) is big & hardcover, that sucks for the bus! fuck i haven't been on a bus alone in so long..to take a clonazapam or not!!???
i'm goign to wear my flat, pointy black shoes today, i want to wear heels, be all grown up and carrie bradshaw, but i'ii wait, i hate teh noise of heels, so loud, why can't someone make silent heels for those who hate to sound so loud!?
i got a call from my fav SG yesterday CRICKET, what a doll, damn i miss that girl!!! i woudl really love to hop on a plane and visit her in LA, but teh states scares me...
okay, i should go get dressed...i'ii be back...
love yoko
so, as always my before-work regimine, give myself lots of time, get up very early, prepare yourself, i need this time, like 2 hours or so before, (even if i am running behind, i will actually show up late just so i can have this time before work, where i just sit and prepare)...haha how stupid! so its liek 44 minutes and counting before i must leave, eeekkks...i'm dying inside
okay so mind you, this is such a crappy job, and doesn't ahve any of the pressures of my previous jobs, (like visual coordinator, or bookseller in charge of hadnling, recieveing, ect), & everyoen seems so laid back. also,i am much better medicated! so there! it's just a mall job, retail, but no dress code, so it seems, & i don't have to cover up my tats, or piercings, yah! maybe i should get my dimple pierced jsut for that....
i had my hair radically cut last night, don't be mad TANIS dear, you still can do crazy shit! it's really short in the back, teh front sides are long, and my bangs sweep across my forehead...its crazy i love it....tracie did a wonderful job, and seh cut luke's hair on top of it all! i never really mind getting all my hair cut off, cause fuck it grows back...
drinking coffee, which i hope doesn't amke me shit (am i teh only one on this?),a nd eating tracie's chocochip banana muffin with margarine, damn i wish there was real butter left!
it sucks that teh book i am reading now,( its a zelda fitzgerald bio, sometimes madness is wisdom) is big & hardcover, that sucks for the bus! fuck i haven't been on a bus alone in so long..to take a clonazapam or not!!???
i'm goign to wear my flat, pointy black shoes today, i want to wear heels, be all grown up and carrie bradshaw, but i'ii wait, i hate teh noise of heels, so loud, why can't someone make silent heels for those who hate to sound so loud!?
i got a call from my fav SG yesterday CRICKET, what a doll, damn i miss that girl!!! i woudl really love to hop on a plane and visit her in LA, but teh states scares me...
okay, i should go get dressed...i'ii be back...
love yoko
How did work go?
Coffee makes me poo too
[Edited on Sep 02, 2004 9:48PM]