So today, we had to present out first scene work in front of our instructor, and BLESS THIS WOMAN, because she met up with both me and my partner yesterday for TWO HOURS and helped us get everything down to an exact.
And before that, I was completely ridden with anxiety. I felt like I had made a horrible mistake, like I couldn't do that, like I was never going to amount to anything but some wanna be actress.
But after today? My confidence is slowly being restored.
I know I'm probably past the age to make it "big", whether that means Broadway or Off-Broadway or film or television or hell, even a commercial. But it doesn't matter. What matters is the art and the means of expressing it. So few people in this world feel anything today. I want to be able to give performances that inspire others, that make them believe in something again. I want to make them FEEL. I want to be remembered for that instead of the mistakes I've made in past.
So, pointless post meaning: I really feel like I can do this now. I'm going to do this. So grab a bottle of rum, buckle up your seatbelts, and get ready for the bumpiest, most kick-ass ride of your life. I'm gonna make it.
xoxo,
Adrian
