There I was, at Starbucks. Standing in line, meeting some guy I'd never met before.
When I first saw his pictures on Facebook, I was immediately taken by his cute bad boy appearance.
That could mean only one thing: Trouble!
I started talking to him anyway, sending messages back and forth for days. After days of chatting, we agreed to see each other for coffee.
He was walking towards me, while I was standing there in that Starbucks. My heart skipped a beat, a feeling I had never experienced before.
I had always been down to earth, so it hit me pretty hard. I was in love!
The coffeedate turned into a night on the town, bar hopping, drinking wine and having fun.
We had fun and there were 2 more dates.
After the third date, I didn't hear from him for four weeks. I texted him, called him, but he didn't reply. Nothing.
I was sad for a short while but life went on! His loss! Take me or leave me!
Well, all of a sudden he reappeared. He told me he'd been busy and asked me to come over.
Like an eager little puppy, I got in my car and went. The bad boy asked me to come over and I came over.
Bad boys! They make life exciting! But this bad boy was so screwed up, he made my life into a living hell!
And I stayed...
I have no idea why I stayed. Maybe I was in love, maybe I loved him.
Naievely, I thought I could change him.
I couldn't of course, he didn't care one bit about me.
He would disappear for months at a time, just to have me snap to attention the moment he texted me.
He'd want to meet up, so we agreed to go on a date. I'd be waiting for him, just so he could cancel at the last moment or just not show up at all.
Picking fights with me, saying mean things, degrading and humiliating me. After a few days of ignoring me, he'd contact me to kiss and make up.
And I'd fall for it every time.
It took too long for me to realize I was letting him destroy me. This relationship wasn't a relationship and it certainly had no future. This motherhugger wasn't going to change for me. I had to try to let him go.
That was not easy!
I finally broke up with him around the holidays, because he had a big Christmas dinner with family and friends, to which I wasn't invited.
That was it, I was done!
For months, we didn't talk or text. He sent me a message in April, but I finally had enough.
I told him I didn't want to see him anymore, blocked his ass on social media and in my iPhone and closed that chapter in my life.
So, What's something I would never do again?
Fall in love with a guy who's nothing but trouble and is a threat to my health and happiness.
I heard every girl does it once in her lifetime.
Luckily, I learned my lesson. I've got a great guy now who is kind of a bad boy himself, but what we have is true love. Butterflies, adrenaline, passion, killer sex, not being able to stay away from each other. He loves me and I love him, so much it hurts, but in a good way!
And we lived happily ever after...
❤️❤️ @missy @rambo @lyxzen ❤️❤️
