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I saw the ex-boyfriend's new girl friend/ my ex-friend at the movie theater I used to work at while I was there to watch a free movie with my friend Colin (by the way, don't see The Other Boylen Girl cuz it's sucks). The ex-boyfriend hid upstairs. It bothers me that I think he's running his mouth around our ex-mutual friends, making people believe I was the bad guy. Believe me, I was not the bad guy. I was stupid, yes, but only for forgiving him for so much and trying to make it work. Actions as well as words are important and though his words were warning his actions were loving.....it was fucked up. I don't want to get all into it right now. Safe to say it's gonna be a while til I'm not pissed. But I will never be that fucker's friend again so I'm kinda glad we got to avoid that because I probably would've really freaked and gone all red and cry baby and swearing. I'm surprised I was so calm seeing the girl, Jess. I've had so many dreams about kicking her ass. My shoulder muscles are still tense from resisting the urge to fucking kill her with my eyes. I'm glad Colin was there as a faux date, even if we really don't click, which is disappointing. Glad I looked good too. In case he was creepy peaking from the booth. God I was to kick him in the nuts! And I want to knock that bitch out. She got a really bad dye job, which makes me feel good. Also, I know he so wants his other ex girlfriend and it's just ridiculous because this was a girl I really was getting close to. She knew everything about him and me, she listened to me cry as he would angrily text me shit about ruining his life. And then two weeks later she gets with him?

I am filled with hate for these soulless bitches.