yellowdays

so i havent had sex in over a month. i have no interest in my old lover. because i am so madly in love with my best friend, who has a new girlfriend btw, and no its sure not me.
i have a cold
i ahve successfully lost 21 lbs since december. another 55lbs to go. but hey, its a good start, i feel good...
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be advised. if i dont make it to school in a year and 1/2 it is because i have been put in jail for murdering* my family or i have been put in a rubber room.
thank you.

*disclaimer* i would never actually harm my family....... so the second will prolly be the case, since they are DRIVING ME COMPLETELY INSANE!

got the full time job she wanted. lfe is going to work out swimingly over the next couple years i belive

went to a bbq with loki to my friends place. where i got to see a lot of old high school friends. it was a really great time. most of them had not met the man, so that was good. loki played with my friend karens kids the whole time. he did a half decent job of listening to me.
now im off to bed...
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so tonight is my lovely night to myself.
tonight is my best friends bday. the one i am in love with. im sure his new girlie will be there and i will want to puke. but if i dont go then things will get awkward between us and that is the last thing i want. before the party i am going out for dinner with...
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you know what is lovely? a day of shoping with my mother and an eveing filled with wine, brie and a pedicure after 3 long days in er. even tho my heart is broken in the love department, it is beeming eveywhere else, so there should be no bitching. i should just suck it up.
my sister has been complaining that she has headaches. she...
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i swam for 45 mins straight, 2 days in a row. and i painted tonight.
feeling good. still broken hearted but good.

im really emotionally drained.
i realized a little while ago that i am in love with my best friend. surprise surprise. because i always do this. but ive been fighting it for ever. so while i was fucking my fuck buddy( which is off again btw and has been for about 3 weeks) i fucked his little brother. like new years, before my fuck buddy...
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in calgary with the wonderful lovely rin and uproot <3 i am very tired. i helped my very good friend move suddenly on wednesday cuz his house flooded and he was moving next week anyhow. but we moved from 2pm till 1am. and now im going out to a club tonight. energy drinks are going to be a must, blech grossness to the max.
i...
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so what pretel do i do the day i dont have to ride my bike to work? i run on my eliptical for 20 HARD mintues. my legs are burning. that bike ride in the morning is hard work with 35 pounds being pulled behind me for 15min of 30min. twice a freaking day for the last 3! man oh man. if im not 30...
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