yellowdays

so i saw a kid from town preform last night. Little T, The Littlest Biggest Deal in the wonk, he lived here for a bit while he was in high school and is real good friends with my son's godfather. it was a real good night. i was DD and my mom was out for her staff party too, so i drove everyone to the bar, left drove my mom home once she was nicely blasted, so funny BTW! and then went back, danced my ass off and drove everyone home.
boys perplex me tho.
i slept with a guy last new years, im sure i bloged about it. anyhow, he is my friends little brother. i kinda avoided talking to him too much till a few months later, but it wasnt weird cuz we hardly ever talk, just when we see each other when we are both hanging with my friend. so then he invited himself over a couple of times when my friend was coming over, so it was all good and back to normal. so we hung out a little bit over the summer, he would come over for fires and what not. and i try to hang out with him, like in a non group setting, like to a movie or what ever, but not like as a date. but he always flakes out. but he taught me to drive standard all summer, and is always real excited to see me when we do hang out. :s i just wanna chill with him, not make him a sex toy. im over the using men for sex thing, it was nice for a year, but it got old. im bored with it. but i mean i dont wanna date him either. i just have only 2 friends in town. and one is mostly busy with boys and the other works grave yards. my movie buddy friend moved away, not raf mind you, and we hardly ever got together anyhow. but it would be nice to have another friend. and ive known him since he was like 11 or 12, and he is super nice and funny. but he like wants to hang out, but avoids me, i dont get it. its confusing.
w/e
im getting excited for my sons bday party. pirate theme. w00t
buh bye sg land