i always feel down and out when my son is sick. and always soooooooooooo much better when he is again feeling well. there is nothing that makes you feel more useless then not being able to fix your unwell child, no matter how much you realize it is beyond your control.
i got 4 happy bday txts before i even got outta bed !!!! <3 i felt loved. prolly cuz i am!
my son was feeling all better w00t! so we went to toy story 3!! it was pretty intense for my very sensitive 3.5 yr old, but lovely none to less, and he liked the ending, i think it made up for the over all melloncoly feel of the film.
then my sis and her bf came over for a lovely bbq. loki had a good bath and a snuggle and went to bed. and then 2 of my fave ladies came over, one of which read my bday tarot reading for me. it was both irally accurate and positive. made me think about what i want to accomplish over the next year and what i have learned over the last one. so ill do my list. i usually do it on new years, but i think i will do one now too
things i have learned since my last bday
1- i am apparently sexier than i thought/think
2- having a sexy lover, tho fun and imediately satisfying, does not fullfill me in the least.
3- i can still paint!
4- i have even more ppl who love me and would be there for me no matter what then i previously thought. and that is a fucking lot since i already felt really lucky in that department
5- i can work, paint, raise a child and still have a social life. i am capable of anything
6- i need to sleep more. am getting better at that
7- i enjoy staying home.
8- a hot bath with candles is one of my fave things, is easy and possible almost every night.
9- i can remember to take my pills. who knew!
10- i am in love with one of my best friends
11- i am an expert at shoving my feelings down.
12- i no longer wish to do the above. i must actively try to stop doing so to be healthy spiritually and creatively
13- i am a good driver!!!!!!
14- im not afraid of a whole lot in my life
15- my son really is my life
16- i really dont need a man. i only want one
17- i dont actually want a casual relationship. i want to one day.......get married.......maybe
18- i do NOT under any circumstances want any more children.
19- no really ^ !!! there are too many ppl on this planet. i want to foster and bring someone who hasnt been shown love properly compasion and love.
20- i have so much left to learn....I CANT FUCKING WAIT <3
:kiss
that is all, peace
i got 4 happy bday txts before i even got outta bed !!!! <3 i felt loved. prolly cuz i am!
my son was feeling all better w00t! so we went to toy story 3!! it was pretty intense for my very sensitive 3.5 yr old, but lovely none to less, and he liked the ending, i think it made up for the over all melloncoly feel of the film.
then my sis and her bf came over for a lovely bbq. loki had a good bath and a snuggle and went to bed. and then 2 of my fave ladies came over, one of which read my bday tarot reading for me. it was both irally accurate and positive. made me think about what i want to accomplish over the next year and what i have learned over the last one. so ill do my list. i usually do it on new years, but i think i will do one now too
things i have learned since my last bday
1- i am apparently sexier than i thought/think
2- having a sexy lover, tho fun and imediately satisfying, does not fullfill me in the least.
3- i can still paint!
4- i have even more ppl who love me and would be there for me no matter what then i previously thought. and that is a fucking lot since i already felt really lucky in that department
5- i can work, paint, raise a child and still have a social life. i am capable of anything
6- i need to sleep more. am getting better at that
7- i enjoy staying home.
8- a hot bath with candles is one of my fave things, is easy and possible almost every night.
9- i can remember to take my pills. who knew!
10- i am in love with one of my best friends
11- i am an expert at shoving my feelings down.
12- i no longer wish to do the above. i must actively try to stop doing so to be healthy spiritually and creatively
13- i am a good driver!!!!!!
14- im not afraid of a whole lot in my life
15- my son really is my life
16- i really dont need a man. i only want one
17- i dont actually want a casual relationship. i want to one day.......get married.......maybe
18- i do NOT under any circumstances want any more children.
19- no really ^ !!! there are too many ppl on this planet. i want to foster and bring someone who hasnt been shown love properly compasion and love.
20- i have so much left to learn....I CANT FUCKING WAIT <3
:kiss
that is all, peace
rin:
such a positive entry!! bodes well for the next year of your life<3