yeatsgrave

yeah i'm very pissed,
mostly got a brused heart .. you know there is nothing worse than someone whome is cowardly, someone who cant live up to a promis,


below is a few letters sic wrote me..
the first one, was a letter she wrote me the morning when i was saying my goodbyes :---------------------------------------

Matthew,

Hey, I just wanted to let you know that I will miss you very much, and will be thinking of you every day.

I am falling in love with you . and i dont know why. it kinda suck ass...you'll be gone for a year. I'm trying not to ... I really am. I have had so much fun with you these
two days that we have had. I never thought U{c would actually come visit me.......im glad you did. your a really kick ass guy. and I think that your a really sweet .
its very relieving to know that not all men in this world are are scumbags .

I cant finish this becuase i don't know how to put my felings into words....i haave to show you.......I'm really scared to. I dont want to be heartbroken again.



I love you M atthew. I really do.
xoxo, A manda



thank you for always being there for me. I'll be here waiting for you.Oh btw im not going to sleep with ANYONE. it's just not my style. I am completely yours. nobody else should get to have me.

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Thinking of me everyday... i see thats what she ment...yeah being there for her...must be a one way streert...


The next email was a few weeks ago...lets read shall we:--------------------------------------

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 02:36:48 +0000


hey sweetheart how are you doing? i hope your doing great....life really sucks for me right now..im sorry i havent emailed you or written you yet..ive just been extremely busy..i hope you understand..i miss you so very
much!!!!! i cant wait for you to come home so i can kiss you and hug you and of course fuck the hell out of you!!!! this girl at the club wants to fuck me...and dont get me wrong shes hot as fuck and id totally do her but i
cant....it would feel wrong to me...becuase i love you so very very much and i want to wait for you!!!!!....i watched bella loves jenna the other day..it was the hottest porn i have ever seen in my life...bella donna is so fucking
hot!!!oh and i watched this blowjob porn too called slap happy it was disgusting...this one chick totally puked on this guys dick and kept going i was like ewwwwww ....dont get me wrong choking on a dick is great and gagging is too but when ya puke on a dudes dick ....ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
beyond ewwww...soooo ive been thinking alot about us lately..and i cant wait for you to come back so we can really be together...i was talking to my girl kc
the other day..(she was at the club that night) and she asked how you were and she told me that i was a diffrent girl with you she said that i carried myself diffrently than i ever have.. i think its becuase you made me feel so beautiful and so loved ...baby i love you so much and i miss you and i
cant wait to see you...when is it that your getting a break? i need to know so i can be there when you fly in... i want to be there..i ahve to be there......
ok im goign to go now and cook dinner for me and my friends.....

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yeah shes been thinking about us.. so much that she would fucking ditch me for a ashole that abuses her and hides the weed... i feel the love , what i love is she wasnt even gonna tell me.. that she couldnt wait or that she was fucking with me or that she was incapeable to make it on her own..


ahh the ironey
any who i guess im single again..
but i think i'm not looking..im really hurt on this incident

~Death is like taking off a tight shoe....

~October FUCKING Rust