yeahexactly

I need some love.

I don't mean sex, while it would be nice so if there are any takers, but that's not exactly what I'm talking

about.

A few days ago I sat and thought that maybe I don't accept love the way everyone else does.

With my family love always had a catch. Love was always conditional and more often then not it was

showed via gifts.

So many songs and poems have been written about how people feel love from the earth or the universe, but

I very rarely do. I am working on it, but its slow.

The rush of excitement, the high you get from falling head over heals for no reason.

I want that, and I miss it soo much.

BUT as things always work it WON'T happen until I don't want it this badly.

My heart just feels heavy,

and I wan to get lost in someones smile, and feel the security of their embrace.

I guess I'm just waiting for someone to look at me with those "damn I'm glad to see you" eyes.