yeahexactly

So I'm trying to fend off sleep
I feel as if I'm keeping the sun from coming up for all of those who are still out living.
Tonight was a good night.
I went to Monroe and watched a friend of mine play at a hookah bar.
I felt very incomplete though, I know this whole being single thing is going to take its time
It didn't help that everyone who was there was with some one though.
I'm not bitter, I guess i just miss that feeling of being able to depend on your significant other.

Anyway.
My class this morning went really well.
My work out left me really sore, but in a very good way.
Its funny, I always (and sometimes still do) find people who say that to be nuts.
I did have to cut it short though, a spot in my back started screaming and I knew if I pushed it I wouldn't be doing anything else for a couple of days.
I'm very impressed at how my body's been reacting to my workouts.
My pain really hasn't been too much of an issue, and I've been putting on quite a bit of muscle.

I was almost fired the other day, which is awesome.
It had nothing to do with my work what so ever.
totally bullshit, the specifics are simply infuriating so I'm just going to leave it there.
Fuck family businesses.

so,
The end of the month is slowly making its way here
This place is going to be so weird without her here.
The thought still stings.
I hate that it is always at the back of my mind.
I want to keep myself in a stupor so I don't have to deal with it.
To keep my emotions at bay.
We hugged today, I really miss that contact.
I feel myself craving touch more and more
and not necessarily sexual touch, though it would be nice.

I feel like I still need someone, maybe someone to just crush on to take my mind away.
blah, night
I need a drink.
but I'll sleep instead.