It's always been hard for me to say when I have a problem or going through a bad time. I don't like to bother other people with my problems because I know that they have their own problems to worry about so I just keep everything inside without telling anyone. After everything that happened last year ( I wrote a blog about it here MORTALITY if you want to read about what happened) I don't think I let myself heal mentally from everything that I went through. I would always keep myself busy so didn't have to think about all the pain I went through and it finally has caught up with me. I'm having nightmares about everything that happened that night and I'm losing sleep because of it. I feel lost like I don't know where or what I should do next and it just makes me feel so alone, but I can see the light and I'm fighting this it's just been a long battle. There have been people on here that have certainly made this a lot easier to deal with so thank you to people like @phianixx @chroi @olgakulaga and everyone else who I've had interactions with on here. You have all made this a lot easier to cope with. I will beat this and be stronger then ever.
