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thanks for the sentiment, man. i appreciate it. to be honest, i'm well aware that railing against la morte is the lament of the fool...but i guess my outrage is indicative of dissatisfaction and the sense that i contribute absolutely nothing to the world, let alone something that will outlive me...which in itself is so melodramatic. ha!

always with the Christ! he's a mysterious blighter... my problem is i confuse his message with the abuse thereof. like i can't get into sports because i resent the culture that surrounds them. daft analogy, but i hope you catch my drift.

what's the Orwell about exactly? the effect of language on thought? there is/was that school of philosophy positing that words incontrovertibly shape our minds, and the(ir) concern is that we have all these neat little notions like "the state" and "the common man" that don't necessarily exist; they are pernicious spectres pulling important levers inside our heads...

Quite.

man i want a scottish thing...cant believe that thread was closed......political censoreship.....

go ohn yersell

indeed sir, i was not happy the thread closed as i was about to rant (didnt know threads could be closed....dont like that at all....)
anyhow.....
glad you like the pics, not really a fan of anyone (apart from maybe bacon, n jenny saville) just try to do my own thing..

so am i. (refer back to your comment on my page, if you need reference.) nice new/ old picture. i'm a fan of your "monk" look.

If only I had one mate!! Speaking of tailor made I've been meaning to get myself a kilt, that goes top on my list of things to do once I've got a job.

Ah, yes. The middle section of the poem. It's a stylstic love of mine to throw in something difficult, obscure or emotionally surreal to break up the "familiar" in a poem. Purely intentional and quite satisfying!

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Shit man! I missed this recent entry of yours, or I would have responded sooner. The past three days I was incredibly sick. Something viral... high fever, delirium, very severe muscle aches, bathroom trips every 10 minutes. Rough. Then my mom got it, so a very sick household. Good thing Claire is at her moms, or she would be sick too. I'm back to about 75%, now... still a bit shakey, but much, much better.

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Wow.


1. I had this for a while, in my teens through early mid twenties. I had a wisdom tooth removed that was impacted, and when I learned to relax more inside and out, and it eased.

I could use braces. My teeth look like they were all yanked out and shot back into my mouth with a small cannon.

2. I had this, too. I did alot of emotional/psychological housecleaning and it went away. Damn, I know what you mean.

3. I was losing my hair, and had a bad scalp. I take a good multi vitamin formulated for hair, and I have a pink scalp and new growth! Wheat germ and nutritional yeast can help with this as well. Got a natural foods/herb shop near you? See what they've got. Couldn't hurt.

4. I'm blind as a bat. Had a pair of glasses crushed in a moshpit last summer. Luckily I had a spare.

5. Damn! I love Del Shannon. Bless his heart. I hope he's in a good world.

6. I live with my mom. Shit, I just have to make the best of it. I haven't always lived here and wont always.

7. Aw. Shit... ah well. More art fairs to come.
I'm sorry to hear it.

and...

8. "I will endeavour, in my heart and mind, to receive both suffering and joy with equanimity. I will learn to appreciate that suffering makes me a better person by observing myself before and after a certain pain, and realising that I am a better person after it than I was before it, that I have been matured by it in some way."


The second list of 8 is very inspiring and shows a deeply compassionate and understanding human being who loves and respects life... his own and that of others.

I'm proud to know you.
-c.

African or European?

Thank you for believing in me, and for being there for me through the dark times when I do not myself believe.

damn straight! as soon as there is enough content (say, 2 years' worth) i'll be looking into getting a collection published, i shit you not. why not try?

Nothing quite like getting your hands dirty, and I could be, and probably am babbling. My buckets are just that, buckets and the other bit is just something that made me chuckle when I saw it.

It's really really okay.

I think things will be fine one way or another.

Best case scenario = unlikely

But worst case scenario = even less likely.

Thanks for the kind words!

good news. i am glad for you and your gram. i really like the pregnancy drawing, but they all have a vibrancy to them.

How dare you! Implying that I might have some sort of substance abuse problem, That good sir is slander and we don't cotton to slander around here! The very idea of it!

Yep, to be honest I've never heard these 'bassists' who have these 10+ string beasts use the lowest pitch strings. Seems to me 11 is the most anyone would need, that said I think it looks f'ing cool

They remind me of shel silverstein a little bit, I like them. very primal very restricted, I'm all about restrictions and repitition these days, I've been drawing in old books, and I've been making up these rules to curtail what I'm making, now, my rules are completely arbitrary,and vary depending on media and the such and I switch them up each time. But I find it very comforting to have a scientific framework in which to make things. Maybe scientific is the wrong word, but the drawings feel more like experiments now, like I have a certain process which I can repeat instead of forcing myself to do a different thing each time like I used to. Ok, I also wrote you a letter before I thought of the journal,
adam,

i've been reading rumours that you're getting a job!!!

Wordsworth, I believe it was called. Yep, I was a massive fan of that story. That was actually one of my favourite issues because it seemed to be a last ditch attempt to get back to the old-style format. Another favourite is the third issue. The first story (the sci-fi-style one) isn't up to much, but the other two - Blood of the Poet in particular - I loved. There were some wonderful single page illustrations in that one as well. I think there's one by Ted Mckeever near the start that I really like, but I can't be bothered going the (4 feet) across the room to find it.

I got rid of a lot of the later ones, simply because I didn't like them, but I like to keep a hold of the first dozen or so and a couple of the very later ones.

Hell yes Batman Frank Miller! Batman, Sin City, Robocop, yep. Twas an exciting day at the grocery store.