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the weather here is absolute shit, non stop rain and plenty of fooding around the country.

i've been feeling very low recently and i hate it, i hate seeing my beloved low too, things dont seem to be getting any better for us at work and i have to say i really hope it doesnt affect our home life too much. what the fuck can i say when my beloved asks me to commit suicide with her, it breaks my heart seeing her like this and feeling so fucking useless.

so yeah wwork matters seem to be worsening and the company could still go bust, what the fuck we will do if it does i really dont know. normaly when things have got bad for me in the past i have run away from them, but i am in a wonderful relationship and this time cant run. today i had an urge to get in the car and drive to my parents for the week, just for a little rest, but i cant leave Alice behind at all, not that i want to in any way, i love her so much and plan on staying with her for the rest of my life. which is another thing, recently i have thought a little bit about death and how it scares me to think that when i go that is it, there will be no more me, i wonder who will care, who would it affect and who would hate to see me go.

any way enough negativity, i'm off for a cup of tea, who wants a cup of tea with me