xynnedra

I have been fighting my depression. I actually tried to force a manic episode to fight off the despair. I feel worthless. I feel worthless. I can't help my friends, I can't get a job in my field. Im not appreciated in my job my marriage failed, the man I loved not only didn't love me but couldn't believe that I was human enough to feel. I apparently not trust worthy. But I'm gullible. My heart hurts right now I don't know where to turn & I'm drowning myself in my own fears and self doubt.