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So last Saturday the guy that I've been seeing and have been having issues with told me he is seeing someone else. I was devastated I realized a little while ago I was in love with him and I was trying to fix things between him and tell him really how I felt. He was very sweet and in the middle of the break up he kissed me. It was so sweet and so painful, he looked so sad. He wants to be my friend, he says he still wants me in his life. I want him and it hurts so much. I left, he asked me to stay a bit longer but I couldn't take the pain. I ran, and got in my car. Then

I lost the man I love, and my freedom in one day, within minutes of each other. I am trying to handle and if it weren't for friends such as Misa_Blake and others I think I'd be way worse than I am right now. I keep dreaming of him and now I'm having nightmares. I don't want to sleep, cause I keep losing him in my dreams or I get haunted in them.