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I hate being bipolar sometimes. I love when in I am manic. I accomplish more, I am more fun, I focus better, and I am a lot more confident. But right now, what goes up must come down, so I am going down. I am constantly on the verge of tears and I am scared of who I am and what I am trying to accomplish. Not the goal, but my ability to accomplish the goal. I am so close to graduating right now and I am scared I won't be any good at what my chosen profession. I also lost my favorite ring, I've worn this ring everyday for 12 years, and apparently I lost enough weight that it just slid off my finger. So that really didn't make my mood any better I've realized how much of a security blanket it had become for me. My thumb automatically to my ring finer to rub where the ring should be and it is empty...and so at the moment I feel that way to.