xynnedra

I'm not what a lot of people think I am. And I know I keep myself secret. Not because I'm stuck up and not because I think I 'm better than anyone. Just because I think that most people would not understand who or I am or what I am. Am I monster in control, do I have a problem that needs help. Or am I so much of a realist I can't see the good in other people or in myself. More often than not people let me down anyway when I try to let them. So it's better if I don't. Let people see the outside package that I want them to see. Fuck letting them in. They can stay outside the shell. why? because most of them have proven they either don't like the outside package so don't want to know the real person, or because they are so involved with the outer shell that when I show them what's really inside they get scared and back off.
FUCK YOU!!!!

I'm tired of lieing I'm tired of being closed off. You dont like what you see don't bother, I can't fit my life into your presious little schedule stop bitching and grow a set. I'm too sexual for you then leave me the fuck alone. I like sex. I want sex, I need sex.... I'm tired of trying to fit into everyones ideas of what and who I should be. I give up...I can only be one thing...I choose to be me.