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Sunday Dec 12, 2004

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Where do I begin? My mind is about to explode as mass amounts of concern is swirling around my mind with the possibility of volatile atoms bursting from my skull.

What is more comforting than a person who feels that same way I do, is a person who I am closest to. What suprised me is how Shane thinks just as much as I do. Pondering about everything that encompasses life. The conversation we had the other night is our best to date. We relate with eachother yet still have differing opinions. His thought process is even more complicated than mine, which brings another dimension to our topics.

Both Shane and I want to leave Colorado. Disappear from this region to do our own things in life. Sure it is a sense of escapism but I feel really trapped here. We want to make a new chapter in our lives. Right now, I want to prove all the nay sayers wrong and give them my middle finger. If our plan goes well, we will be doing just that.

Jolene, I've been thinking about her for the last handful days. Talking to Shane, I brought her up and dude, that stirred some old feeling. I wonder how she is doing. And like Before Sunset, different questions beginning with 'what if' have been circulating within my conscious. Then again, without Michele I wouldn't probably be where I am now, which is a person who's grown up so much the last couple of years. I now ask myself, "What if I told my parents it wasn't okay to move to another district?" Jolene went to Widefield in our senior year and man, I could have dated a girl that I liked since 7th grade.

This really emphasizes on the concept of not taking any shit for granted. When the opportunitity comes, seize it before regret settles in. What is said is done and I should probably look at my moment now. After all the most precious moment we have is now.

Michele suggested I come to her place sometime several days ago. Another suggestion is how we should go shopping. Dude, I wish I did not said sure because after putting thought into it I don't want anything to do with her. Tired of Michele's superficial outlook on life.

Jolene was never superficial. If it wasn't for Michele, my knowledge of Dolce and Gabana would be nonexistent. During my middle school and high school years Jolene was the only girl that would give me the light of day. I wished I could of asked her out.

At this present moment, I wished I stayed at Widefield. Right now I feel like calling her but I do not have her phone number. Man, like Before Sunset, Jolene is my Celine right now. Right now I can only imagine she is little different from her old self but people do change and I might be in for a world of suprise if I do meet her again. Knowing how she is doing and going out for lunch wouldn't be bad. Rachael Yamagata's song "I'll Find a Way" comes to mind.

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