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Well If you haven't heard my set got accepted for Member review!!!

August 9th at 3 pm PST it will come out! I am super excited and will keep all you Ninjas and Pandas posted.


In other news


I had a panic attack two days ago that lasted three hours, it wasn't fun in fact I was scared to death I couldn't calm down on my own, I haven't had one that bad since I was 17. And that is because I was trapped in a house for three days and I wanted to get out and the snow from the blizzard stopped the door from opening.


I am thinking about ditching all I have ever known for 11 years, because it has been falling apart for the past two years. I don't know why I am going thru this now. I have strong feelings for someone else, and I can see myself with them, sexually and emotionally...... but I am terrified!!!!!

How does one just pack up and move on I am starting to REALLY look for my own place, I took her name off the car title, and I got my own phone line. I found out yesterday that she recorded a conversation between me and someone I have been talking to for years.....she is crazy and I can't stay here.....but I can't afford to live on my own out here, and the last place I want to go to is back home to CO....

I don't know what else to say....changes are in the future....I just need to get thru it....the first couple of months are going to be hard.....but I will get thru it

Anywho!!!!! I am okay now.... I got meds to help if I ever have another panic attack like that again.

Hopefully I will be able to do something soon about my sanity here


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hungery13ear:
This is what I tell my friends and I will say it to you and Expo in the first post. People are used to things. They are used to having a bf/gf, significant other. They like the fact that there's some assurance in having another to hold and to lie down with at night. They are scared of changes. Look at the relationship, do you truely need them in your life or can you see yourself being ok without them?
Jun 3, 2011
kobeyk:
Congrats on the MR set!!!

I know what you mean. Follow your heart hun
Jun 3, 2011

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