xylah

Sigh......



My toy poodle Sir. Sidrick got hit by a car last night.

This is the second time....I lost my other toy poodle Zinfandel


(he whined a lot) Last year almost to the day. due to being hit by a car too. That driver stuck around. but I think he only did cause my neighbors kids saw him. Zin died in my arms, and Sid never got the chance.

I have dealt with so much in the past couple of months. Every time I think I have things together....something else happens. I sit here writing this balling my eyes out, because I DON"T KNOW WHAT I AM DOING WRONG! I feel like some kind of lab experiment gone awry. ( like I am a mouse that isn't smart enough to find the fucking cheese...walking around in circles and shit)

I don't know what else to say......I know that i am not going to the wedding I was invited to today....I can't.....my heart is barely beating on its own.....

God I miss him.....