xylah

Ding dong ..... whaaaaaa? (love snl)


Before make over


Amazing sun rise in CO While I was there. Only thing missing was the ocean


Make up skills


Bad pic color but my new look


cute right?


The color is amazing

The past few days have been getting better. This last night I had a dream about my fathers accident. And I wish I could say it was the first time How can you react to that when you have no control over what is going on. I could stop it because I have no control over people being alive or dead.

It all comes down to we are all mortal and we need to be here for ourselves and no one else .... have fun...be safe that is all we can try to do...and all the other stuff is just details...

and well forgivable things....there are going to be time where you bust yourself down for things that aren't under your control....don't.... I know easier said than done...but alls I can do is take it one day at a time...

I am tired of being told it is going to get easier...or that I am not acting the same...how am i suppose to act....every Saturday I stare at my phone and wait for my father to call me....I wish it wasn't real....

In other news I have been applying for jobs like crazy I actually found a bank that is hiring...right after I get my hair done ha ha....also going to hit a bunch of restaurants and get something for right now...need money!!!
Well...unless there is someone out there who wants to be my sugar daddy ha ha JK JK!!!! Anywho I am going to hit the gym or sit in chat all day can't decide!

Huggs and Kisses!