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Can't wait until I get my disability check on the first.

I was applying to a job online, and it put me in a foul mood because I had to remember all of the crappy jobs I had in the past. A real buzzkill.

I am at an early crossroads. I am at a loss in so many ways. I am just so unsure of path that lies ahead of me. An irrational fear has been...
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One of the hardest debts to pay is the debt you owe to yourself.

I have the same dream every night. That I am in high school and I keep forgetting the combination to my locker. I keep forgetting my class schedule, and I keep getting lost. And everyone hates me.

I graduated from high school ten years ago.

Same dream every single night for...
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Part of growing up is letting go. Part of growing up is moving on. It's seems easy for some and excessively difficult for others. But without the ability to let go and move on, you will stop.

Your body will continue to age at the same rate as everyone around you, but your mind will be stuck in childhood/ high school/ college.

You have to...
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Every day that goes by, I feel my desire to get serious about writing again growing. That's a really good thing, because lately I haven't had much of a drive to do much writing.

I have a lot of ideas. It feels good.

Changed my alias, hope you don't mind. Feels better.

I have reactivated my love affair with yogurt. I love you, yogurt.

I also love peanut butter. We go through a lot of peanut butter at home.

Comfort food is awesomeness.

I need to get writing soon. Really. A writer should be writing. Once I get started again I'll be fine. But right this moment all...
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I love recieving packages in the mail. Even when I am expecting something it's still exciting.

Ferrets never get boring. I can watch them all day. If only my cats got along with them. Thursday tolerates them but isn't too fond of them. Garfield seriously can't them. Seriously.

Since I just relaxed my hair, my hair color has been mostly pulled out. So I trying...
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The concept of beauty confuses me sometimes.

Who is it that decides who or what is beautiful or not beautiful??

I certainly don't fit media's high and unattainable standard of beauty. In fact, by those standards I am most certainly ugly and obese. I know in reality I am not. But what average women could compete with those standards?

I do know one thing: I'd...
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I am just really, truly disgusted with my husband. He makes me sick. UGH!

I told him that I am not going to interfere with his life anymore. If he wants to be a drunk then he can be a drunk.

But I am moving on with my life whether he is a part of it or not. I have put my life on hold...
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I am not even going to talk about what happened today.

I don't know what to say anymore.

I have pretty much given up trying to go through members videos. Think I am going to stick to just SG videos for a while.

I mean some of these members will post anything, for free. Here's a video of my girlfriend peeing. Here's a video of my mom getting gangbanged. I mean, really? Of all the porn sites to post that kind of stuff...
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Ok so maybe hippo was a little extreme so let me explain.

I started out at 130 lbs. I am 5'7, so I was on the low end of a healthy range.

I went on anti-depressants and anti -psychotics.

I am now 169lbs. I am almost 40lbs heavier than I have been my whole adult life. But if you want to get medical I am...
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