bleh today is a bad day for me. nothing's gone wrong or anything i'm just feeling bleh. and i'm not keeping my mind at bay. i dunno i think these 4 days aren't gonna be that great for my mood.
i think i need to cry. i don't feel like i'm going to. i just feel like i need to. it feels like i should...
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i think i need to cry. i don't feel like i'm going to. i just feel like i need to. it feels like i should...
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I got up way to early today. i went to sleep around 2 in the morning and woke up at 7 so i could drop my car off to get it's door fixed. speaking of which i'm gonna take pics of it today if i can. cause i owe them to kindle.
but yeah when i'm tired i'm even more emotional than normal, of course...
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but yeah when i'm tired i'm even more emotional than normal, of course...
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phoenixgirl:
guess who is not her normal cheery self...can i join you and we can cuddle and be moody together? 
dhd_no_pants:
Don't be sad. The right person will come along.
And I may take a short hiatus from here, but I'll be back and going strong before you know it!
The right person will come along.
And I may take a short hiatus from here, but I'll be back and going strong before you know it!
another video blog. this time not so happy. bleh. sorry.
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user038538:
oh so sad...i'm an expert on the subject...tons of advice....first thing, you can't dwell on things that have already happened...they've happened and they're not going to change...if they make you miserable, you have to make a real effort not to think about them anymore....it's easy to wake up and be sad everyday, it's comfortable...happiness doesn't always come naturally, it's a choice...secondly, change the things that make you unhappy (the things you can anyways)..this is too long...i'll message you!
Ok so i haven't wrote anything in a little tiny bit it seems like. so yeah i got my new car. it's nice. i like it a good amount.very very pleased with it except one thing. the drivers door, i can't open it from the outside.but i'll bring it back and they'll fix it up for me.
cammed last night. it was fun times had...
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cammed last night. it was fun times had...
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martini:
thank you. 
xo
xo
avalon13chase:
i love you punkin..
hope all is well
hope all is well
so yeah my car is totalled, they're only giving me 2,800 for it after my 500 dollar deductable and so yeah i need a new car and that sucks. and now i'm starting to get a bit sick and it's the week before turkey day and that means it's incredibly busy at work, so fun fun.
so i have no idea about cars, never cared...
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so i have no idea about cars, never cared...
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phoenixgirl:
they were very yummy!...and I made so much, I have enough for a full dinner tomarrow night too!!!...... 
phoenixgirl:
I still have pumpkin pie for later 
....want some of my pie? 
....want some of my pie? so tired. i was woken up this morning at 8:15 by my boss calling to see if i could come in today. i debated it for about 3 mins knowing i had to do my accident report and drop it off at my insurance company which is 30 mins away and closed by 5. he told me i could leave anytime i wanted so i...
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kindle:
Wow, that went pretty random with the oral thing! Are you seeing anyone to help you with your depression?
millie:
It's a good thing you won't be smelling me anytime soon then. 
It is super chocolatey!
It is super chocolatey! so last night i was in a car accident. i wasn't injured at all, and i wasn't at fault, in any way at all. i was like the third car hit, so i was pretty lucky. no one was injured. if i had been first hit i probably would have died. the first two cars hit were pick-up trucks, i drive a kia rio. so...
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devil_woman:
what does Archive mean????? Im lost...truly lost.
Glad your ok... i hate accidents....
Glad your ok... i hate accidents....
phoenixgirl:
ok cuz the sooner i get better, the sooner you can kiss me with your awesome long tongue! 
ok so i've realized i tend to blurt things out a lot. like usually it involves someone saying something to me, and me linking it to something else and then me blurting something out. example: someone calls me captain obvious cause of what i've said, and i just out of no where do an impression of john madden. and then the person has no idea...
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phoenixgirl:
I always have internal dialogue going, because i find many things amusing, and just keep it too myself to keeop the day going, many people never recognize refrences that I would make anyway, so I just keep it to myself.......floors, hee hee.
alleycake:
You are forgiven. lol
I'm sorry about your watch, that sucks asses. I hope you find a new one you like lots too.
I'm sorry about your watch, that sucks asses. I hope you find a new one you like lots too.
So i feel like it's blog time.
i'm really debating quitting my job/looking for a new job. but i fear change which is part of the problem. i asked the manager that does the scheadule to take me off of tuesdays and put me on wednesdays cause the manager on tuesdays keeps going on and on about how my level sucks(a level being straightening out...
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i'm really debating quitting my job/looking for a new job. but i fear change which is part of the problem. i asked the manager that does the scheadule to take me off of tuesdays and put me on wednesdays cause the manager on tuesdays keeps going on and on about how my level sucks(a level being straightening out...
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aijin:
it's normal to feel taht way.
if you were crazy you wouldnt worry about it.
thats your anxiety talking.
i <3 you
if you were crazy you wouldnt worry about it.
thats your anxiety talking.
i <3 you
friedhamster:
I think the only insane thing that I saw was the living with the parents idea, yikes. No fun. I've not lived with mine for 4 years now, ever since I was 18.
gah i'm feeling sleepy as hell right now but i'm not gonna sleep for like at least an hour.
i'm so addicted to WoW right now. all i wanna do right now is level and do Battlegrounds(for those of you that know WoW) and mind you i don't really want to be this addicted but i mean obviously it's keeping my mind off of shit...
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i'm so addicted to WoW right now. all i wanna do right now is level and do Battlegrounds(for those of you that know WoW) and mind you i don't really want to be this addicted but i mean obviously it's keeping my mind off of shit...
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user038538:
hahahhaha...you are what you eat!! (good one)
kindle:
Dude, you can totally ask for my friendship i love living with Hathor and J24U. They're great people aaaand, I love being a Masshole
i love living with Hathor and J24U. They're great people aaaand, I love being a Masshole
thanks for the thought tho darling.
xo
I suffer from depression..really effed up shit..I recently went to a doc, who offered me meds. I dont want meds. I looked at myself in the mirror and decided I NEEDED to turn myself around or I'd end up dead. And I really am not up for the dead thing quite yet.
I drank..Alot. dude I smelled like booze for a few years of my like pretty much all the time.
When I chose to get my shit together I started to pay attention to triggers..booze in no way helped the healing process..It makes shit worse, it really does..Alcohol is a depressant, so really you are just adding salt to the wound.
And for that matter you are just allwing yourself to get comfortable in the spot in which you are sad in. Fuck that. you are bigger and better than that shit man.
I will be here for you .