i came to a realization today. i've wondered a lot whether or not my depression was just a way i subconsciously tried to get attention, and it struck me... i've been like this since before i could get attention from it. i would cry alone in my bed at night at the fact that i had no real friends, and then eventually that turned into the lack of girlfriend. i've been depressed for as long as i can remember, but it hasn't always been in the eye of others.
sorry for posting this here, it's the only place i have to say this that i don't feel i'll completely ridiculed.
sorry for posting this here, it's the only place i have to say this that i don't feel i'll completely ridiculed.
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emotedcreations:
A lot of us feel this way, most of us don't have the gall to post it on the internet. I have to say I have an amount of respect for you that you can be so open. I come from a German family and tradition, we ridicule each other and swallow it, which mostly results in alcoholic bouts of inanity. ANYWAY, my only advice is to keep on keeping on, one day at a time, move, move, don't stop moving, it works, I promise. You're a good man, everything will work out in the end. Also, read The Unfettered Mind by Takuan Soho. It discusses way to keep the mind moving. It really helps when your mind dwells on negative things. He's a major contributor to Zen Buddhism and Japanese swordsmanship if that makes a difference.
chainlink:
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