Ok so i'm gonna elaborate a tiny bit of why i'm in a current mood, the other part of it i don't believe i'm allowed to talk about.
ok so last thursday My "friend" IMs me, and we're talking a tiny bit and i mentioned a girl or two at work, and he starts what seems like a lecture to me. so i say "why does it feel like you're lecturing me" and his response was something like "because i've missed lecturing since i've been reclusive lately" so i reply to him something like "stop that shit i don't need to be lectured". he replies with a "..." and so instantly i realize he thinks otherwise and say "but you think i do though" and then he automatically replies with a yes. so i go off on him telling him that i've got too many problems that i've gotten from my family, and that i know most of my flaws and all that junk. and when i finish he says to me "you can't move on and so you're a leech" or something along those lines. which felt amazing to me. simply amazing.
and now i'm also getting told i'm a horrible person on other fronts for a mistake i made while trying to help others. i was put in a place i shouldn't have been, i made a mistake, and i've paid for it with loss of friendships and an over all feeling of stupidity and a feeling that nothing i do is right.
i have something more i want to say but as of right now it's not a good time to say, not because it will hurt anyone but because it might ruin something.
How I Feel: /wrists
ok so last thursday My "friend" IMs me, and we're talking a tiny bit and i mentioned a girl or two at work, and he starts what seems like a lecture to me. so i say "why does it feel like you're lecturing me" and his response was something like "because i've missed lecturing since i've been reclusive lately" so i reply to him something like "stop that shit i don't need to be lectured". he replies with a "..." and so instantly i realize he thinks otherwise and say "but you think i do though" and then he automatically replies with a yes. so i go off on him telling him that i've got too many problems that i've gotten from my family, and that i know most of my flaws and all that junk. and when i finish he says to me "you can't move on and so you're a leech" or something along those lines. which felt amazing to me. simply amazing.
and now i'm also getting told i'm a horrible person on other fronts for a mistake i made while trying to help others. i was put in a place i shouldn't have been, i made a mistake, and i've paid for it with loss of friendships and an over all feeling of stupidity and a feeling that nothing i do is right.
i have something more i want to say but as of right now it's not a good time to say, not because it will hurt anyone but because it might ruin something.
How I Feel: /wrists
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cptpyjama:
*hug*
allegro:
Then you are a high-quality man. I send enormous hugs your way, bloody vagina talk or no.