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Cheer up my friend. I will tell you the same thing one of my friends has been telling me. You have more friends than you realize, and they will be there for you when they are needed.

I understand what you are going through, for most of my life I have had the same feelings that you do. There are so many reasons why I am screwed up the way I am, and most of them have made it hard for me to trust people. Going through life and second guessing what people say to you, or theway they act about you is so very hard on your mental state. I wish I had some wonderful advice for you, but I have not figured it out myself.

And as for people here, bond with the people that mean the most to you. It might not always work out the way you want, but at least you stand a better chance of making and keeping the close friends that way. Thats is what I've done and for the most part it has worked very well.