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Ok so here's the thing... i can't trust people. i can't, it won't happen. right now this very instant i honestly don't think my best friend will last in my life. why? because no matter how much people before him have said they'd last they never did.
now my memory is bad and i can never remember the things i need to so i might miss quote this but... i had a girl telling me she would fight for something she cared about namely me. and that she wasn't going to give up easily. yeah that shit was false. only took like 2 weeks. now i'm not saying i'm not to blame. really... i am. but that's not my point. i'm sick of people making promises they can't keep, telling me things that don't hold true, thinking they can be the different person in my life that won't let me push them away and then give up so easily.
Yes, i do push people away. it hasn't always been that way, but it's something that came about because of the amount of times i've had people just give up on me. i no longer want to let people have that option before i push them away. i don't like feeling given up on.
don't take any of this the wrong way, i'm not horribly depressed over any of this stuff right now. in fact i'm not depressed any bit over it... i am however annoyed. very annoyed.
people throw around the word love way way too much, or even just the thought of love. i'm kind of sick of all the "i ♥ you stuff sometimes. not when it's friend to friend, that's different. but like when you have feelings for someone, that doesn't mean you love them, and people need to realize this shit. saying you love someone too early, can scare them, it can also fuck things up, or ruin a friendship because really you can't love someone in 2 weeks. that's the main reason i've only been in love once. i knew the girl for a year before i even had feelings for the girl... and my feelings for her at the time were just that feelings, not love, it took a while before those turned into love, and that only happened because she had similar feelings for me.
there is no such thing as love at first sight... that's what you call lust. it only changes from lust to love when you really get to know the person, again something that takes a while to do... not a few weeks...
ok time for something completely different because i'm not really in that bad of a mood.
Saw transformers opening night. that shit was amazing. it did the tv show justice. had a little bit of comedy, a lot of bit of action, and the original voice of optimus prime did the voice for the movie. and to top it off... Soundwave was in it. all in all... i think i said "i cummed" like 20 times. the movie was spectacular. if you haven't seen it, see it. if you have seen it.... see it again.
tinkle.
Ok so here's the thing... i can't trust people. i can't, it won't happen. right now this very instant i honestly don't think my best friend will last in my life. why? because no matter how much people before him have said they'd last they never did.
now my memory is bad and i can never remember the things i need to so i might miss quote this but... i had a girl telling me she would fight for something she cared about namely me. and that she wasn't going to give up easily. yeah that shit was false. only took like 2 weeks. now i'm not saying i'm not to blame. really... i am. but that's not my point. i'm sick of people making promises they can't keep, telling me things that don't hold true, thinking they can be the different person in my life that won't let me push them away and then give up so easily.
Yes, i do push people away. it hasn't always been that way, but it's something that came about because of the amount of times i've had people just give up on me. i no longer want to let people have that option before i push them away. i don't like feeling given up on.
don't take any of this the wrong way, i'm not horribly depressed over any of this stuff right now. in fact i'm not depressed any bit over it... i am however annoyed. very annoyed.
people throw around the word love way way too much, or even just the thought of love. i'm kind of sick of all the "i ♥ you stuff sometimes. not when it's friend to friend, that's different. but like when you have feelings for someone, that doesn't mean you love them, and people need to realize this shit. saying you love someone too early, can scare them, it can also fuck things up, or ruin a friendship because really you can't love someone in 2 weeks. that's the main reason i've only been in love once. i knew the girl for a year before i even had feelings for the girl... and my feelings for her at the time were just that feelings, not love, it took a while before those turned into love, and that only happened because she had similar feelings for me.
there is no such thing as love at first sight... that's what you call lust. it only changes from lust to love when you really get to know the person, again something that takes a while to do... not a few weeks...
ok time for something completely different because i'm not really in that bad of a mood.
Saw transformers opening night. that shit was amazing. it did the tv show justice. had a little bit of comedy, a lot of bit of action, and the original voice of optimus prime did the voice for the movie. and to top it off... Soundwave was in it. all in all... i think i said "i cummed" like 20 times. the movie was spectacular. if you haven't seen it, see it. if you have seen it.... see it again.
tinkle.
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Trust is a relative thing.
I dont trust people. Although I have a much broader sense of trust than most. I'm a seriously open guy and to those willing to listen, stranger or friend alike, I'll bare my soul. That's not trust in my book though...
I trust myself. That's about it. I'm the only one who's always gonna be there for myself. Way I see it, that's all everyone else needs. That, and a good pal to talk to from time to time, and that can be pretty much anyone
Trust is a relative thing.