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*sigh* that's a sound i've been typing a lot of lately. i have this underlying urge to type something here. but it's all been said before. it's like the only times i want to post is when i'm unhappy. i'm just entirely not interesting. so it's hard for me to understand why anyone would want to befriend me.

every day my thoughts still belong to her. i still really wish to meet her some day, and sometimes i feel like some part of me feels like i'm gonna be with her some day even though i whole heartedly know i'll never get to have her love me again. i should have had my first love earlier in my life. it should have been a girl i'd actually met. it should have been a girl that wouldn't have given up on me so easily. but i still love her. i will always love her. and i'll always want her to be part of my life because i'll always want to know she's ok. there've been shows lately that have been making me think so much. shows promoting protecting someone you love and how it empowers you. i would give my life for that girl.

In other news... TMNT movie is out this weekend. i'm hoping to see it day of opening but not sure. i'll find out soon. i'm not expecting anything. but i hope it'll be good. and i hope that i don't think throughout it. :-).

also i really need to go out to a bar or something. i'm still waiting on people to go with. supposed to do this thing over the summer. it's supposed to involve a lot of drinking. it'll be fun.

also i sort of might of have a place to move out to. it'd be close by but i'd need to find a room mate or 2. because i can 't afford it on my own. it'd be about 800 a month plus utilities. and i barelly make about 1200 a month, and it's costing me 300 a month for my car not including gas. so yeah i'd need to find people.

i don't know why i'm typing this no one cares :-) but sometimes you just needs to write.