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i have nothing of interest today really. work was boring as hell, i seem to be thinking about the girl more and more often again, i'm probably gonna be drunk tonight. that's about it.

i have no new years resolution, because if i did it would be something like "find a girlfriend", "stop thinking about the girl", "be happy with who you are", "be less angry/sad" something like that, and i just can't see myself being able to keep them, so why make them.

sometimes i wonder if there are people that just randomly think about me through the day. it would be nice if there was but the way i feel i don't think there are.

i wish i knew what it was i had to do to be happy, that didn't involve me finding someone. i don't know, the only thing i can see that causes me to feel the way i do is how lonely i am. i tend to feel a lot better when people are giving me attention but that's not something i can make happen.

sometimes i wish i could write about something that didn't involve me. i hate sounding self absorbed, bleh.

this song is exactly how i feel right now:

Hopelessly devoted to you


Guess mine is not the first heart broken,
My eyes are not the first to cry.
I'm not the first to know there's just no getting over you.

I know I'm just a fool who's willing,
To sit around and wait for you.
But baby can't you see there's nothing else for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide,
Since you pushed my love aside.
I'm outta my head hopelessly devoted to you,
Hopelessly devoted to you,
Hopelessly devoted to you.

My head is saying fool forget him
My heart is saying don't let go
Hold on to the end, thats what I intend to do,
I'm hopelessly devoted to you .

But now there's nowhere to hide,
Since you pushed my love aside.
I'm outta my head hopelessly devoted to you.
Hopelessly devoted to you,
Hopelessly devoted to you