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ok so i've realized i tend to blurt things out a lot. like usually it involves someone saying something to me, and me linking it to something else and then me blurting something out. example: someone calls me captain obvious cause of what i've said, and i just out of no where do an impression of john madden. and then the person has no idea why i did it, and i have to explain. i think it might be that i'm so used to internal dialogue and such.

i live most of my life in my head. always thinking, rarely stopping. and i know that's not good. i don't have the communication skills i need because of it i think.

i haven't been quite myself in a while. i used to always always always just be incredibly random, more often upbeat and trying to just get a giggle or something, any small thing, even if it was getting myself laughed at. i don't feel like i'm that person anymore. and i kind of wish i was.

i'm never the same person as i was the day before. every day my mind changes, how i think changes, what i feel like i want changes.

my wrist feels so incredibly naked right now. my watch, the one i'd been wearing for about 3 years now, has pretty much died. i've been trying to find a new watch but i can't find one that's exactly what i want. i have a general thought of how i want it to look but can't find it. my price range is about 200-300 because i figure if i'm gonna have a watch might as well be a good one that won't eventually turn my arm green.

i don't know if i ever posted this but this is a thing i really hope i get to do some day. i'm gonna spoiler it:

my nipples taste like candy.